Monday, October 18, 2010

Knocking the dust off

Well, I was inspired to knock the dust off the ol' blog, and see where it might take me.

A lot of things are going on in my life now, way more than I can properly speak of in one posting, so I will likely parse it a few ways. Probably the biggest thing I can think of for now is my ongoing discernment to become a Deacon. I think that if I had told someone 5 years ago that not only would I come back to the Catholic Church, but that I thought I should pursue becoming a member of the ordained clergy of the Church, they would have laughed incessantly. And rightly so. I was hardly living what one could call a holy life; God was someone I thought about in terms of "what has He done for me lately", and precious little did I consider that there might be any alternative but going to Heaven when I die.

All that has changed. I strive each day to be a good father, a good husband, and seek to align my will with God's. I say that I am discerning the diaconate, for it is not certain that I will become a Deacon, least of all in my own mind. And when I see the examples of some very good men that already are members of the diaconate, I wonder what would possess me to even consider such a thing.

This I know: Each time I try to dismiss the idea, a host of reasons are shown to me that I must go down this path, explore it, and trust in God that He will lead me through that which He has lead me to. I know in my heart that I want to serve the Church, and lead others to Christ. In that respect, little else matters. I seek to love my wife and children more each day, to be the man they need me to be, and to provide them with the loving support they need. If I can then align my will with God's then perhaps I might have done some good while here.

Well, I invite you to follow along, make comments if you will, and see where this journey takes me.

May Christ's Peace be with you always,

1 comment:

  1. Oh, you would be a most worthy deacon, C.! I can't think of anyone better suited. So glad you are writing this blog!